I don't think I'm alone here when I say, I've felt a little, shall we say, dull lately. I love breaks from school, quite honestly. Especially with both kids in school and I don't have that "Do I send her to daycare since I'm paying for it? Or don't I, to remain a decent parent" argument with myself every morning. I like sleeping in and having all-day pajama-days. I really like doing puzzles and playing board games at 9AM. I especially love that having no schedule during the day means that we have no real bedtime. So if we're in the middle of a really good battle of Clue or Just Dance at 9PM, then the world won't stop turning if we stay up an extra hour. And since we have nothing to do the next day, staying up late doesn't have earth-shattering repercussions like it does during a regular school week. I have a love/hate relationship with going back to school. I love it because I'm a huge fan of structure, even if I don't prove it during a school holiday. I hate it because it means we're back to reality, which includes homework and bedtimes before 8 and alarm clocks and less Clue.
Worse, though, is that with the holidays and school breaks and the new year comes... cold weather, gray clouds, months until spring, salt on the road, indoor everything and worst of all... resolutions. They always make me feel so inadequate. Chip and I stuck to one resolution one year when we were dating. For once in our life we were a part of the 8% of Americans that actually made a resolution and stuck to it.
Anyhoo... I seriously don't think I'm the only one that gets the winter blues. I know I didn't pen that phrase, Winter Blues, so that fact makes me confident I'm not the only one who has ever had them. I'm not sure if whoever came up with it meant that literally or not, but perhaps winter blues could be from people yelling at you from the TV every January. Honestly, don't you feel like every time you put the TV on it's so much of YOU SHOULD BE THINNER! YOU SHOULD EXERCISE MORE! YOU SHOULD EAT HEALTHIER! YOU SHOULD READ MORE--BE A BETTER FRIEND--BE MORE ORGANIZED! So much "advice" on how to clean out your closets and "look" thinner and be happier! Perhaps, though, they meant for the Winter Blues to be literal? Unfortunately, I might get both, but the literal kind... I definitely get those. I like sunshine and green grass and t-shirts. I like the sound of lawn mowers and the smell of pool water and looking at the dirt under my kids' toenails when they wear flip-flops. Given a choice, I would always, always, always choose to be hot over cold. I hate snow-skiing and snow-boarding and snow-tubing and, well, quite frankly, I hate snow. It's cold, you know?! Snow cream? Gross! Snow men? So much work! Snow days? So much laundry from all that playing in the snow and having to be bundled up. Because. It's. Cold!!!
Anyway, back to the point here. The past several weeks have found me creeping ever so closer to those winter bluesy days that I dread every year. Those days when I get grumpy by 4 because it's dark. Those days when I look on the computer to find cheap airfare to Hawaii (fyi --> no such thing). I needed something uplifting. That's when I started to really pay REAL attention to this app I have on my iPhone called You Version. It's a Bible app and I love it. I could say that the accountability of keeping up with your devotionals you've signed up for is awesome, but that's the one part that actually gets on my nerves. I don't need an iPhone app to email me and tell me I'm a slacker. But this year, after making all of zero resolutions, I started a new daily devotional plan. There have been others, but this one is different. It's called Soul Detox. Who doesn't need a detox of SOME kind at the end of the year? I needed one. I needed to detox from all these horrible thoughts I have about... well, January. What really started to get me out of my funk was the Verse of the Day. Here are some examples of ones I thought were trying to hit me over the head with a hammer while I was feeling overwhelmed by the petty things such as coldness and the strict bedtimes and all this talk of being better than we already are that 2013 was bringing.
1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you.
Colossians 3:15
Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.
Deuteronomy 6:5
Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.
1 Corinthians 13: 4-5
Love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
I put that last one on there because of my husband. He hasn't been sick one day this past month and he has cared for me, my foot, my kidneys, my anxieties, our children when they're sick, everything when I was out of town. I love him and he truly couldn't live this verse any better if he wore it as a jacket.
I have no real point in writing this particular post, quite honestly. I just felt like sharing that as down and out as one might feel as we get back to the "real world" there is a way to feel better. And we already have so much to be thankful for (like seasons, even I can admit). And I say this as it is chilly outside, it's raining, I'm in my dark basement with my son who I picked up early from school sick. I have the largest To Do list I think I've seen in years at work and an overflowing laundry basket. I have cancelled plans to go to the basketball game tonight and am having trouble figuring out what I'll do tomorrow if my child is still sick. So, not much has changed around here. But I feel better anyway. I'm reminded of friends that brought us dinner when things weren't perfect. I'm reminded that if we didn't have family 5 minutes down the road in both directions, life would be way more difficult. I'm reminded of how much fun we had when we weren't sick. To be honest, I'm reminded that the worst part is that my life is pretty easy and perhaps I need to just find a different perspective. I've survived winter before, pretty sure I can do it again.
HAPPY New Year!